Hey,
Soo..they did go there, not surprised really, you did give us the heads up (which, if I didn’t mention before, I’m so grateful for)..and b/c of the warning, it hurt less..didn’t eliminate it, but made it bearable. Actually, for their first time, and considering their respective feelings regarding the other, it was so spot on, I would think this would be X3 canon if X3 had gone there.
I think the actual love making was done really well, he was gentle, tender, considerate, yet still passionate so I’m glad about that. She was true too, with all the various thoughts going through her at that moment. That said, since I don’t expect a Rogan HEA, after reading it, I thought, well, like a band-aid pulled off, at least it’s over. I can honestly say, since discovering Rogan fic 2 years ago, that’s probably the only time I’ve ever thought that about any type of Rogan hook up and am actually okay with it lol.
You’ve put me in this horrible quandary, I can’t even Logan rant, weeell.. apparently yes, I can :P. I know he didn’t start it, and went with it b/c he cares for her and knows what she went through..so, in his mind, he’s comforting and taking care of her, and he tried, with the breakfast and everything..but that doesn’t make his
?obliviousness (not even sure if that’s really it) any easier to deal with. What was with the-at least one of us can be happy crap? Is he sacrificing himself for her? Did he even think how that would make her feel? That she’d want his selfless “sacrifice” of himself so she could live with a pretend one-sided relationship where at least she’d get his body as his heart/soul’s apparently already taken? I’m happy Marie is mature, knows and respects herself and her love, enough to reject him and move on, it’s the harder road but (hopefully) ultimately the more rewarding one. More than anything, I’m just mad at him for taking her safe place away. HE’s been her safe place from probably the moment she met him, and if he’d gently shown her they shouldn’t go down that road, he still could be. Actually, now that I think about it, he did her a favor, she won’t have to pine every day for him now, time will heal her. All that said, surprisingly I don’t’ hate him, I know he’d never want to hurt her.. he’s just caught up in his own brand of misery and I feel bad that he’s losing out on this amazing girl. And, another first from this Rogan shippin’ girl, I’m hoping there’s a card wielding-red on black eyed guy coming up in the epilogue. Thanks so very much, your stories are so beautifully written, it’s always a pleasure.

Author's Response: "after reading it, I thought, well, like a band-aid pulled off, at least it’s over." Heh... There's a similar line to that in the epilogue *lol* I laughed at your comment about Logan ranting. Yeah, he's not the bad guy in this, but his 'at least one of us can be happy' line was a jackass thing to say. (Heh... I love writing arguments... is that wrong?!) He's all closed off and trying to do the right thing, but when pushed into an argument, he can say the most hurtful things without even meaning to. Basically, he's a man! And yeah, he's taken her safe place away. Or rather, actually, I think she needs to take half the blame for that herself. But it wasn't the most healthy safe place for her to be, so maybe it is time she moved on. Talking of which... I'd better tidy up the epilogue so I can post it as promised! Thank you for your feedback. I love reading it!

*mouth hanging open, speechless*

wow


wow


what a chapter

*still kinda speechless*

more please soon!!!

Author's Response: You shouldn't have to wait too long. I'm hoping to get the epilogue up tomorrow :o)

Well, you know. That hurt, but not as bad as I expected. Maybe because you gave plenty of warning, maybe because I had a little buzz still going on from yummy Rogan sex, but more likely because it was Rogue's decision, and she made the right one. And he wasn't trying to hurt her, he wasn't stupid or callous or cowardly or even oblivious, any of the ways he could have screwed it up. She's just not the one he loves, and she knows better than to think that is workable. I'm proud of her, and it cushions the blow a little. Thanks so much for this wonderful fic. I'm anxiously awaiting the epilogue.

Most heart-cutting line:

“What?” he says, confusion clouding his vision. “I thought it was what you wanted.”

Author's Response: I could hug you. Your comments say all the best things! I was so worried about posting this last chapter that I edited it to death and back. Most of all I was worried Logan would be seen as the bad guy, when he's trying so hard not to be & I love that you said that! Thank you :oD I'm going to try and post the epilogue tomorrow, so you shouldn't have to wait too long for it.

I've been reading on my phone lately, so I had to go back and see where I last reviewed, and was shocked to see I stopped at Chapter 1. You definitely deserve a review for every chapter. I think you are doing an amazing job with this little love quadrangle, and how it is affecting them all. This was my favorite line from this one:

For a moment, I stop and think. And my only thought is, was that for Scott or for Logan?

You warned me. You did. From the title of this story, and throughout. Very upfront. And yet...*sigh*

No more. Please.

No More.

I am weeping. I knew to expect this, I knew you would make Rogue so real, and I am devastated. But, I am oh so proud of her. She. Deserves. Better.

Just to let you know, I read this several times before I could think clearly enough to write this review. So painful, and so beautiful. Stellar stuff.

Author's Response: *hugs* I'm sorry! I won't do it again. Promise. I absolutely love that you're proud of her though, thank you. I was a bit worried people would lynch me for writing this chapter the way I did, but I couldn't let her accept anything else. It would feel wrong. I'd feel like I'd let her down or something (character guilt... heh.. that's a new level for me *g*)

Oh ouch.Can't wait for the next chapter

Dont know if its the stupid pregnancy hormones or your just that damn good but parts of this had me tearing up.

Im leaning towards it being due to your superb writing skills.

Hi September.
Listen, this fic is great. There are so many awesome things about it; for starters, how you've portrayed Jean and Bobby, they're themselves; kind and so real to the actual deal. I like that very much. The way you've characterized them makes us - or me anyway, not hate them, but sympathize with them.

I also dig the "miserable" Marie. My favorite line is "Maybe it’s me. Maybe I was always untouchable. Maybe I was never meant to be touched." So good. It fits the while scenario.

I'm very hard to please when it comes to fics, but you've pleased me greatly with this one. Thumbs up.

Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you're liking it so far.

It feels when you read this chapter that Rogue is sliding from her carefully constructed hiding place – each section taking her further towards the truth and further down the slope so to speak. Love that the peace and quiet of being alone meant she could feel the subtle change in her skin. Something about truly being out on your own I think – it’s easy to imagine that no matter how hard she tried she wouldn’t find the freedom/space/peace to be that aware if she had stayed.

Love the average quotes about the motel and the “Maybe I'm just average, too.” I found this line so sad, again just lowering her level slightly from before.

Fav lines are two from the end. The first because it showed a glimmer of hope in herself “They let me guide them. Hands clasped on to my hands. No gloves. Just trust and terror all mixed up” and the second because I think this is the one of most believable explanations of a situation I’ve read in a long time “Seven people who's lives I have helped save today. And I'm not sure how to handle that. Or what to make of it.”

Really liked this chapter, glad you enjoyed the beach (lucky you) however selfishly glad you’re now back cause I’d really like more of this asap!

Author's Response: "...The first because it showed a glimmer of hope in herself" I absolutely love that you said this. Thank you! Because that's exactly what I was trying to convey with that part. She's not there yet, not by a long shot, but it's a turning point. It's a tiny bit of self confidence *g*rnrnI have a few tweaks to do on the last chapter (and I'm a bit worried about it!) so it'll probably be the weekend before it's up.

That was kinda gross xXx

Awesome chapter. Love the fact that Rogue went in there and was able to be a hero by herself and didn't end up the damsel in distress.

Hey, it was so great to see your new story, though I initially resisted reading b/c you made it clear where this would not end up, and I’m not the greatest-Rogan angst/no HEA in sight-loving girl. That said, I jumped in, I probably would’ve avoided anyone else’s, it’s you, MTAR is one of my all time-faves in anything, and I’m glad I didn’t deprive myself of your story. You’ve captured the complexity of M/L/J/S…and while I’m not a Jean fan, never watched or read anything for her, I don’t hate her either..usually it’s more of oh, she’s part of the background-let’s move on thing….but I actually kind of get her here. She really is reminiscent of the movies, where the love for Scott was still there, she was just weak and human, and a relentlessly pursuing Logan was hard to resist. That said, I can’t give her complete slack, she’s old enough/experienced enough to know and understand what she willingly did for some moments of gratification, and I think you not only made me see her, but might have kind of made me turn against her a bit, and I don’t think that was what you meant to convey, was it?, reverse psychology..maybe? :P
Anyway, Marie is still who I’m reading for, and while I knowingly went into this with w/o Rogan hopes(okay, maybe a teeny bit) I find, for this, I’m all about Marie and I’ve delegated Logan to the background. He’s there, and obviously the major star in Marie’s thoughts/feelings and it’s heartbreaking how her dreams/hopes in regards to him are always compromised, it’s that horrible case where I can’t even rant at him b/c he’s so hurt himself, and really would never want to hurt Marie the way he’s hurting, though I wonder with his senses how he could be sooo dense in regards to her-until this chap. I was so scared that with the drinking/touching, he might even go there..b/c I’m not sure Marie would’ve resisted even thinking she’ be a substitute, and I can’t tell you how relieved I am it didn’t. I want so much more for her, she’s worked so hard, earned her maturity the hard way…and while I think Logan will always be the one she will yearn for, I think she can go on to lead a fulfilling and content life without him in her life as more than a friend. I’ve given up on him romantically for her here, your a/n’s notes and who he is here, made that very clear and Marie is written so beautifully I’d read 100 chap. just for her, though I know you said it’ll be a couple more. Thank you for sharing this love note to Marie, b/c that’s how I feel about it, I admit I resisted b/c it wasn’t one to Rogan, though in a fundamental X1 way it is, and I can’t wait to see what her future holds. Last thought..eep, I’m kind of scared b/c you mentioned sex (and I can’t believe I’m saying this with Rogan) but I’m worried it will be Rogan and I don’t want that for her here, I truly don’t, she deserves everything, not a small piece he may give..gaah it’s a convoluted mess in the best sense, but I’ll read wherever you take them. Thanks so much.

Author's Response: You know what? I never thought I'd say this, but thank you so much for all your comments about Jean! I did't hate her either. Like you, I'm a bit.. meh.. whatever about her usually. But after watching X1 again I wanted to write a fic when she's really not the villain everyone makes her out to be. It's so easy to make her evil/nasty/man-eating and use that as a hinge to get Logan and Rogue together, but that feels so out of character for movie!verse fics. I just wanted to write something that accepted the events of X1 as truth. I mean, Logan's not a total idiot, right? (*lol* don't answer that!) And I wanted to explore the relationship that Logan & Rogue could have in these circumstances.rnrnHeh, and you're not the only one who dislikes Jean more from me trying to portray her as nice but flawed. *lol* It wasn't planned that way, but maybe it's a technique I can use again!rnrnAnd lastly, thank you for your awesome comment. It made my day this morning when I read it. You've summed up all the emotions & everything I was trying to convey with this fic. I might have to employ you to write my summaries *lol* I'm crap at them! There is more I want to say in reply to what you've written, but I can't without giving bits of the last chapter away (I tried.. then deleted what I wrote about 3 times!) so I apologise for that - but thank you!