I find that I cannot say
The words I intended to
The words that died on my lips
Before they were ever spoken
The words that I misplaced
The words that I forgot
The words I refused to say

I find I cannot hear
The words you spoke to me
The words you told me long ago
The words you told me yesterday
The words you spoke loud and clear
The words that said I love you
The words I refused to hear.

I find that I cannot see
The tender looks
The love in your eyes
The way you moved
The way you cried
I missed the struggle
I missed the good-bye
I missed the pain you bared
I refused to open my eyes

I find I cannot explain
Exactly how I feel
I feel too much or too little
I feel enough, I feel nothing
I feel different or the same
I feel joy or grief
I feel fear that I love you
Fear that I'll lose you
Fear that I'll refuse
To explain how I feel

I find that I am sorry
Sorry that I never said I loved you
Though I did with all my heart
Sorry that I never listened
When you said you loved me
Sorry that I closed my eyes
When you tried to show me warmth
Sorry that I realized too late
What I feel for you

I find that I love you
I find that you're gone
I find that I'm sad
I find I'm alone
I find the blame
Is mine to bear
I find that I love you
Came seconds too late